Oh, Tannenbaum

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My brother and I, ages 4 and 2. I am the cute one.

Sibs, ages 2 and 4. I’m the cute one.

You may have an elf on your shelf, but at our house, we have a slouch on the couch.  That’s me.

My brother’s second Christmas

I remember it so clearly, the shock I experienced that first Christmas home from college.  There it stood:  bright green, perfectly symmetrical, not tilting precariously in its base.  My mother had succumbed to the allure of  an artificial tree.

My mom always made fun of her mother’s tree: a fru-fru white flocked behemoth bedazzled with shiny purple and aqua ornaments.  I always liked the tree, but never said so.  I may have been looking through rose-colored glasses, but I believe Mootsie (my grandmother fancied herself too young for “Grandma”) had a pink spotlight bathing the tree in light.  She always hid an ornament in this tree that made shrill bird chirping sounds, which set my dad’s teeth on edge.  (He called my grandmother “Hazel” to her face, “Hazel von Hazel” to everyone else.)

Our first Christmas tree, four months after our wedding. Notice the zebra print drapes my mother made us,

Our first Christmas tree, four months after our wedding. Notice the zebra print drapes my mother made us,

I was surprised my father tolerated my mother’s surrender to the artificial tree.  His own parents always had a real tree tall enough to brush the ceiling in the knotty-pine paneled den.

A beautiful tree in my grandparents' family room

A beautiful tree in my grandparents’ family room

It was always an airy fir, so you could see all of the ornaments.  My favorites were the kinds that were test tube affairs filled with red water that bubbled when heated by nearby lights.  I also loved the ones that had little fans that twirled if positioned precisely above a big ole hot light, a light the size of a plum.  When Christmas was over, my grandpa sawed off one limb every night and threw it in the fireplace until all that was left was the trunk.

And yet it was undeniable:  In my parents’ living room, the site of seasonal bickering over the uprightness of the trunk in the stand, sat this perfect green tree.  It didn’t tilt.  It didn’t fall.  It didn’t shed.  But it also didn’t smell like Christmas.

I worried that my mother might be  depressed, pining (pun intended) for me far away in Evansville, Indiana, worried  that she had lost her zest for the season.

On New Year’s Day, she removed the tree skirt to reveal a  nest of plastic.  It was a dry cleaner bag which she pulled up to the top of the bush and secured  with a twist tie.  She carried the whole affair, the decorated tree entombed in the plastic bag and still in its stand, to the furnace room downstairs.

My mother had become her mother.  Her conifer cravings were gone.

And then, I became my mother.

Before the fall

Before the fall

I don’t remember when I gave up the real tree.  We had some beauties, I’ll tell you.  Before we had kids, we had a tree trimming party each year where my friends strung cranberries and popcorn, hung the ornaments, and draped single strands of tinsel on the branch ends.  A Jewish friend, Barbara Cohen, seemed to enjoy  decorating the most.  She continued to fuss9 over the tree long after the others had retired to the dining room and dipped into the spiked eggnog.  One year as our guests enjoyed refreshments in the top floor of our bi-level, we heard a thunderous crash.  The tree had fallen down.  Somehow we righted it and tethered it to the wall with twine and a nail, and then Barbara redecorated it.

The neighborhood kids getting ready to go caroling

The neighborhood kids getting ready to go caroling

When we had kids, Christmas tree shopping became a family affair.  The kids and I scouted the tallest tree that would fit in our family room with a vaulted ceiling.  When we had narrowed our options, we all circled the contenders, looking for the one that was most symmetrical.  Rick scrutinized our choices, checking to see how straight the tree was, because getting the tree positioned in the stand at home could cause an hour-long argument.  We had three cats and two little kids, so we had taken to tying fishing line to the trunk in several 1986 096 (2)strategic locations and securing the strings to the wall.


My parents’ tree is in the background. As Elaine on Seinfeld would say, “Fake. Fake. Fake.”

When the kids moved away, and I had to do the decorating myself, I found I focused on the end of Christmas when it was just  beginning.  As Rick and I fought over getting the tree in the stand, my head under a nest of pine needles, I was thinking about how those pine needles were going to clog my vacuum cleaner in just two weeks, and I knew we’d find needles in the carpet at Easter.  So, like my mother, and her mother before, I bought an artificial tree.

My daughter Stacey in front of my parents' artificial tree

My daughter Stacey in front of my parents’ artificial tree

Artificial trees had improved considerably over the years. They went together, one, two, three. The color was more natural, and the needles, once fluffed by tugging them this way and that (there were elaborate diagrams illustrating fluffing technique), pretty much covered the branches and trunk.  When we bought a pre-lit tree, I became a born-again elf.

For about five years, I was satisfied with this tree.  It took me hours to arrange the ornaments, just

A perfectly symmetrical pre-lit trees, when all the lights still worked

Our tree in our first downtown apartment. This was the first year we had to string lights on our pre-lit/post-lit tree.

so, hanging my mom’s handmade ornaments front and center.  I hung red and white candy canes (what’s with the newfangled neon-colored canes you see nowadays?) and iced the tree with tinsel.

But then one year, something bad happened.  I put the tree together, the A top into the B middle into the C base, one, two, three, and plugged it in.  Lights immediately twinkled  . . . on 75% of the tree, but there was a black patch in the middle .  I headed to Krogers for a few strands of lights and made swift work of patching the void.

The next year, we lost another fourth of the lights.  Last year, I had to string lights on the whole doggone thing, but of course the dead bulbs were still there.  Despite my expert fluffing, I couldn’t hide the pimply effect of all those bulbs.

Two weeks ago I did an archaeological dig in our storage closet until the skeleton of my tree surfaced.  The picture in my mind was like a flip book:  dragging out the tree box, to putting up the tree, to taking down the tree, to dragging the tree back. When I found the boxes of ornaments, I envisioned myself rewrapping them in tissue two weeks hence.  I heard the prancing and pawing of my vacuum cleaner as it sucked up ornament hooks and tinsel.

I shoved everything back in the storage room and slammed the door shut.  Oh tannenbaum, we are consciously uncoupling!

My droll little mouth was tied up like a bow.  My eyes—how they twinkled!  My dimples, how merry!  My cheeks were like roses, my nose like a cherry.  I was liberated!

The hours I saved by not putting up the tree could be spent on the Christmas merriment I really enjoyed:  sitting on the couch, reading a book, and eating Christmas cookies.

Erin's kids

The Mix kids cutting down the tree . . .well, really, just Jim cutting down the tree. The children are happy. Not sure about Jim whose head is buried up to his/its trunk.

But then I made the mistake of getting on Facebook.  Picture after picture of families chopping down trees, the red-cheeked tykes all aglow with Christmas spirit.  Babies perched in pumpkin seats in the shade of luxurious tree branches.  A little boy on his father’s shoulders, reaching to place the star at the top of the tree.

Then I went to our annual Christmas book club meeting at Judy Dixon’s.  Judy Dixon is a sensible woman about my age.  She lives alone.  I expected a tabletop ceramic tree on her coffee table, but instead what I discovered was not one, but two, big Christmas trees, beautifully decorated with ornaments, lights, and gently draping ribbons.

hall treeWhen I came home, the elevator stopped at the sixth floor.  The doors opened to reveal a real Christmas tree some show-off neighbor had decorated and displayed for her neighbors.

I opened my door of my apartment and saw the pathetic sight of presents on the table, not under the tree.  I had to admit it:  I had evergreen envy.

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I can imagine my children’s conversation:

Allison:  I’m worried about Mom.  She didn’t put up a tree.  Do you think she’s depressed?

Stacey:  You think she’s depressed just because she didn’t put up a tree?  Seriously?

Allison:  Maybe she’s depressed because I moved to Norway.

Stacey:  Whatever.

When I searched for photos of Christmas trees for this post, I found ones from every year of our marriage.  The tree is the iconic backdrop for all Christmas pictures.  So where will we pose this year?  Next to the big screen TV?  In front of the dishwasher? Beneath a tall lamp?

Oh, Tannenbaum.  I’ve become my mother, and then some. I think she’d be proud of me.


My kinda tree!


The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other.
~Burton Hillis

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  1. Oh my, you are indeed the same person! I have bubble lights on my mantle and the ceramic tree on my end table. This is a brilliant piece! “Consciously uncoupling” and “evergreen envy”! And yes, my mind is always on the after-Christmas while I am decorating. You are such a wonderful humor writer…yes, the new Erma Bombeck! Send this to the Huff Post!!

  2. What a Christmas present!! This wonderful tale caused me to take a stroll down Christmas Tree Lane, recalling the trees of my life, from the virgin pine chopped down by my dad and pulled home on a sled to the two ceramic trees and the small prelit fake tree now gracing my living room.

    You are a delicious writer, filling the page with scrumptious, strongly scented words, tickling the funny bone in us all.

    Indeed, you are blessed with the magic touch for humor, mixed with tragedy, pathos and good ol’ belly laughs! I give this one a standing ovation!

  3. You didn’t become more like your mother on this one. You became more like your sensible daughter who hasn’t been putting up a tree for years!

  4. That was my best Christmas ever!! Got to start from scratch…after it fell over. I got to do it ALL BY MYSELF!!!! You brought tears to my eyes and a chuckle to my belly with this…on a day I REALLY NEEDED IT! Thanks Sandy! Love you always….Even though you are much older than I am. :)

  5. I can so relate. This was nostalgic – looking for the perfect christmas tree when the kids were little, stringing popcorn and cranberries too. Then the artificial tree as I found I was allergic to pine/mold on real trees. Lots to write about.

  6. Sandy, this truly summed up the discussion Dave and I had this year about the tree,outdoor decorations, cookies (that I end up eating most of). …….With both kiddos living out of town it’s a lot of work for minimal “family bonding” which I think was why we did many of these yearly rituals.
    Our solution– go away or better yet visit one of them next year for the holidays:)
    Love your wit and humor–thanks for sharing. And Happy Holidays!

  7. I loved this Sandy….this is sooooo you! When I first retired, and we moved, I just put up the table top tree that I had in my classroom. Three years ago I longed for a nice big tree….went out and bought one that looked very real. This is one of my favorite parts of Christmas.
    Interesting how we each have our own “pieces of Christmas.”
    Injoy your Holiday Season!

  8. For the first five years of our marriage, when we didn’t have any money, we put up a tree with all edible decorations. Popcorn and cranberry for garland. Gingerbread men, sugar cookie cutouts, candy canes, and pretzels for ornaments. It took many days to make the cookies. I figured out how to punch a hole in them with the end of a straw before baking them. Then I hung them from the tree with green thread. It took forever to string the popcorn too!
    One rainy, humid Christmas we came home to find all the cookies on the floor , having softened and broken through the thread. The next Christmas, we returned to find the dog had been way too tempted by the “ornaments” on the lower branches. He had toppled the whole tree and was cowering in a corner.
    So we broke down and bought real ornaments. We kept the cranberry popcorn garland tradition until our kids were no longer home to help with the stringing. And although we reluctantly got a fake tree a few years ago, we still hang candy canes — small reminders of times gone by.
    Merry Christmas, pine-scented or not.

  9. I loved the references to,The Night Before Christmas. We have gone from real, artificial, and back to real. It doesn’t take up space in the summer! Thanks for the humor.

  10. This was the best Christmas ever . . . even without the tree! Though I have to admit that I am still at that point where I cannot wait to put up a proper real tree next year. The Norwegian trees aren’t like the U.S. ones, though. They look like really huge Charlie Brown trees.

  11. I swore I’d never have an artificial tree–until the year I ended up sick in the hospital with hepatitis while the tree was still up. When I was released, I was ordered to complete bed rest. I found it easy to swear off real trees as I dragged that pathetic dead tree, which lost bushels of needles with every step, to the curb on St. Patrick’s Day.

    • I threw the artificial tree in the dumpster yesterday. It felt cleansing.


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